Blogging on the Farm

Got an early start on the farm today today.
Kids are happily doing their own thing and
so am I. I love the freedom that I am experiencing
right now. Max & I have been attached at the hip for so long
that it is an interesting part of my journey, allowing him to be independent.
Free from me & my crazy roller coaster of emotional energy. Free to find out
who Max is. It's a new & thrilling experience for both of us.
Not only is it about the kids finding out who THEY each are, seperate of
me, it's about ME finding out who I am, seperate of them.
We will never be without each other, as we are a family. We are a small
unit, me & the kids, however fluid as it becomes, growing & changing over time,
we always have each other.
The thing that is different about my relationship with my kids is that I try not
to judge them or control them. I allow them to be their own people and I respect them
and their rights to have their own thoughts, ideas & dreams. They each know that they
can tell me anything and that will not change my love for them. They have unconditional love and that goes on forever... through out lifetimes and eternity. We have made a sacred contract with each other from the other side of life. As has each of our Angels on earth.
Waking up, listening to the roosters & beagles, seeing the stars and feeling the warmth of
Dave's love brings me to a new place of "safe". Feeling safe and loved.
What a beautiful feeling. I have told the kids for years that they are safe & loved, so why has it taken me so long to even begin to concieve what that means to me?
I knew I was safe in Gods terms. I know that God protects me. period
The stress of being a single Mom & an abused wife, had shaken my personal feeling
of security. Dave has brought that to me and so much more.
Dave.. MY Dave. My only Dave.
How could I have ever known what kind of crazy path would lead me home to him?
We both had so much to go through to get to the place on our own journeys where we
could be good for each other and the world. Together, WE are the most powerful tool we have. Together, we can do anything. We did not have to create our love. Our love was created for us and given to us, as a gift and a responsibility. What My Dave & I are creating is a human relationship. THAT is where, for me, it gets tricky. I am very selective on who gets into the bubble, as my passion for peace & God is the most important thing in my consciousness. THAT MUST be honored. Not just accepted, but respected.
When I allow my mind to see this family & farm in my visions, I see only beauty & love.
I am deeply in love with David. From a different place of love that I have ever been.
It's a sincere, passionate, loving, safe, fun, easy love. It was a love that began many eons ago, in another time & place. I have no doubt that THE Dave (MY Dave) was the one who came to me in my dreams, 12 years ago. When I look into his eyes, I see it. I recognize it.
I know that our souls have danced before and in small glimpses, I almost remember our lives together prior to this one and I believe that time will reveal more lost memories of lifetimes shared. Dave is my Angel of Peace & Love. Dave is my teacher and my best friend.
God told me, with clarity to trust this man and I do. I trust him with my life and more sacredly, my heart, without effort, without doubt. I know that God brought us together, not the internet, not the big city full of people... God. What GOD has joined together shall never cease to be. Eternal. The kind of "Grow old with me, the best is yet to be" kind of love that I have dreamed about all of my life is really here, on the farm in Manes.
Thank God for the leap of faith that brought us here and Thank God for my ever growing family and Thank God for the power of Love bringing it all together, better than my dreams could ever want for. I am blessed.
Have a bright Sunshine Day!! LOVE & PEACE Prevail always!