Simply BE-ing...

The one thing in life that I love more than anything is simply BE-ing. BE-ing free to dream. BE-ing safe to love. BE-ing one with the Universe. Quiet BE-ing. BE-ing peace. BE-ing love.

My Connection to God is all there is

I know this truth, because as I sit here, pondering God and the Christ connection in all of us, as David serenades me with old gospel music. THIS is how I KNOW God is listening.
I have had a God day for sure. I'm trying is all I can say. Honestly, one of the most difficult tasks is to try to relate as a human with other humans. I feel so deeply and am so sensitive to energy. How can I explain that to people?
It doesn't matter... I do need some people to understand. Jewlia understands, Max understands. My Church Lady sisters understand. I have to have God. God is my link to sanity. Once I realized my enlightenment, I made a choice to follow God and I do try to follow the examples & teachings of Jesus and Gandhi and the many great teachers I have encountered along the way. I know my mission... I am here to brighten, enlighten & heal the world one spirit at a time.
I have known that all along. Now, learning how to incorporate that into my human life here in Manes, Missouri is my next objective. In the meantime, I have human issues to attend to, regarding the cafe'. Financial, cooking, getting into the flow, etc...
Then there is creating the non-profit. Should I start a church or an outreach program or simply a non-profit? I'll be still and wait for God to lead me.
Stay tuned....

Alone in a town full of humans....

I thought I was safe from the maliciousness of people, simply because God always lights the way. God is GOOD. ALL the time. Any doubt of that is simply other peoples belief system messing with my bubble.
The question is how do I be a light in a place dimmed by ego and meanness? People judgment and gossip... I'm looking for God in everyone's eyes, but it is eluding me. It's not that God's not there... It's just that today, I don't see it. I am not sure what filters came off or went on, but my BA is aching, as well as my head and this physical body. Emotional stress plays havoc on my well being.
I know that I am here, as a spiritual being, to have this human experience. I know that I have agreed to this path long before my life on this planet began. I can not understand though, if I am being the light and following Gods path for me, then why am I subjected to stupid human petty drama. Do unto others... So, then if I am kind & compassionate & accepting of others, why is it not shown back to me? How can human beings be so cynical and cruel to one another and how am I, an enlightened being, supposed to behave around people that do not share my vibrational frequency? If I can't see my light how can I see anyone elses? If I forget my own strength and light, what if no one is here to remind me of it and I forget totally who I am?
I am not flesh & bone. I am a spiritual being trapped in a human body, surrounded by people who do not understand my language of non-violence and perhaps can not even see my light. They see me as a human and I am certainly not a human. Sure, I live in a human body and I have human behaviors and feelings, but I am sooooo much more than this crazy, overwhelmed, tragedy of a person.
Or am I?

A moment alone at the farm...

The question today is all about what I am doing here.... Isn't it always?
Because I see myself as a meek, humble, spirited servant of love, I rarely look at the humanness in me. I try not to see it in anyone else either. I know that we are all here with a higher purpose and I am here to fufill whatever purpose God has for me here on this planet, in this life. This human life. What does it all mean from the BIG picture, Spiritual side AND what does it mean on the human side.
Humans... I prefer not to be around too many of them, especially at once. It totally sucks my energy and I am so vulnerable and hyper-sensitive to the energy and words. It is so much easier to hold consciousness when I have alone time with God. A time to connect with the ONE REAL TRUTH that I ABSOLUTELY BELIEVE IN WITH UNWAVERING FAITH.
The Divine power of Love.
I must learn to love the energy that I fear in the most Christlike manner. The objective is to understand what I fear, so that I know how to release it and overcome. That is the courageous thing to do. What is not love is fear and I believe that. We either manifest from our fears or we manifest from our love and it works simultaniusly. It has been said to "be careful what you wish for, as it might come true". That is so factual, however it could be "Be faithful what you wish for because it will come true."
Now that all of my dreams are coming true and I know that I am manifesting as fast as the speed of light, I know I must slow down the process a bit and enjoy what I have created.
It's time to get to work on the book and learn to plant the garden. It's time to learn farming and self sustainability. It's time to enjoy building a love and the life that I have spent my entire life dreaming of with the man that I have spent my life dreaming of. A simple life full of sunshine and color, animals, peaceful harmony, balance, passion, quiet, resourcefulness, sanctuary.
It is an interesting experience, as an only child, learning to be around siblings and family a lot.
It truely makes me appreciate my own, personal space. My bubble....
I truely love the farm and am starting to believe that I will spend the rest of my life here with Dave and the Wadey Bunch, being Lyn. Everyone knows I'm crazy and they are all cool with it.
I feel safe here. I know that my Dave cares for me, cherishes me and keeps us safe. He will let no harm come to any of us. He is my Pa Ingalls only better... He is My Dave. My only Dave. All others were simply imposters. I know that I have been vulnerable and I know that every step I have taken in my life, looking and searching for my "real life", have led me stright here to Manes with My Dave and Our Life. Right here to the cozy warmth of our Love room. Right here in the arms of the strongest, most gentle man I have ever known who I love with a richness I have never felt before. A bond of trust that I know that I can believe in, simply because it's God.
Back to the purpose... Now that I'm here, with the man that I love, time to get into the groove of the book AND manage the cafe' AND get the Farmers Market up & going AND learn gardening AND BREATHE... Now that I'm here, I kind of want to catch my breath. Learn to feel safe and at home. Learn how to be aorund family members when I have become so reclusive. There is sooo much more to do... I'll just keep doing what I do best. I'll show up and I'll hold consciousness of the beautiful life that I know we are creating, Dave, my family and me.

Taking notes on life...

I'm currently processing the many dynamics in my life and what that all means.
I love my life today! I love being me. I know that all of this is part of the big, divine plan of our creator, I'm just not sure how all of these bright spirits fit together, so I'm laying low & taking notes, knowing with complete certainty, that it is all God unfolding and I live in humble gratitude for the peace and joy God brings into my life ALL THE TIME.
How do you say thank you when God gives you exactly what you asked for?
The only way I know how is to live in service and peace.
To promote peace and non-violent communications to heal wounded spirits and to restore faith in the ONE Divine power of LOVE!
So, off to the greenhouse to do some spring cleaning! June is getting her doggie girl operation tomorrow and we are fixing up a little place for her, which will, in a few weeks, become the greenhouse!!
YEAH!!!!

Vision a world where everyone can be safe & free.

LOVE!!!

Physical Manifestations of our human world.

I have been on this planet for almost 42 years and love the freedom and new thought age. I am on a different level of consciousness than most other people and that helps me out so much in my spiritual lessons and I realize that it is other spirits (God in all of us) that are behaving in human ways that are helping us along the way. Teachers and nurturers, angels, guides. Listening to God's Voice in human terms.
I know that God is manifesting thru me, all of my hopes, wishes and dreams, so I know, with complete faith, that when I keep myself Spiritually balanced that ONLY GOOD can enter my bubble. Knowing this in my zen place and knowing this in the humanness there are many different levels of faith. So, knowing that I can create and demonstrate ONLY Good thru God, why do I still have panic attacks around human life? HOW do I get hooked into a crazy world of other peoples stuff and more so, how do I restore harmony to the physical manifestation of stress?
I FEEL everyone else's energy. I sage & I pray & I see the LIGHT, however my body still resorts to the feel of the physical aches & pains AND the emotional wounds and scars of others spirits.
I need, as a spirit and as a human to somehow learn to release, relax & allow.
Allowing is easy. All that means is that I allow and accept what God brings my way, knowing that this is a life lesson meant for ME... My Spirit... MY FREE SPIRIT.
My graceful Spirit of giving & service not that of a freaked out middle aged hippie chick that is as flaky as snow, trying to juggle too many balls in the fire.
So, how do I keep myself in my zen space of purity? How do I keep my constant connection with God thru the one universal string of light... I KNOW my role is not to be a stressed out person. I KNOW that I must have quiet time for God every day. Not a sleep time, but a meditative time, where I can disconnect my energy from anyone and everyone in this human world. A time to connect directly with God thru the power of my mind and the one Universal consciousness. I have to have time to mediate on world peace. Season for non-violence begins soon & I have flyers to make up and research to do. I also have to get my visual mind focused on the farmers market and cafe'. I must vision health for all of us and prosperity. I vision for perfect outcome and God does the rest. I simply allow...
WHY then.. Do I manifest physical symptoms of stress, panic attacks, high blood pressure, shortness of breathe, physical aches? I am only perfect health and only perfect health manifests itself thru me. I know that with each step that I follow God, perfect health is mine. I know that with each step I take with God, perfect mind is mine. I know that I follow God's lead. That is how I have survived in this life of some pretty remarkable events.
Everyone has a story to tell and everyone has ears to listen.
So, in the humanness of this, there are a lot of emotions that people feel towards me and/or my behaviors. I try to keep myself out of other peoples judgments or their expectations of me. I am free to be me and that's ALL I can be. Everyone is here to have their own Spiritual journey, my only hope is to help them along with a hug or a sage and on a good day, maybe some love in their heart that once wasn't there. Some faith.
So, I show up & God tells me what to do next. I am happy to hand the leads over.. surrender. I do it every moment both consciously and unconsciously. I don't care what other people think... it's none of my business or concern, however... I do care about how people feel and I only choose to bring joy and harmony to wherever I go. I live in peace with the Universe in my tiny little bubble of a BA. The physical manifestations of anxiety and stress are simply feelings to ride through.
I accept the gift I have been given and I allow God to work thru me, whatever that experience means to other people, I can simply to allow knowing that it is all unfolding for the greater good.
In the meantime, I have my prescriptions in hand and will get my meds filled and see if that helps some of the physical until I get to a zen enough place where I can do it myself. All I have to do is show up... God will direct me from there.
So, that's the crazy ramblings of a middle aged woman who is so much more than a human, trying to enjoy the crazy ride and all of the love that the world has to offer! I live in humble gratitude for the one most powerful source, God, who saves my soul every day.
I live in the salvation of It's divine light, as the perfect expression of light and love.

Visualize a world where everyone is truly free.

LOVE!!!!

2009 - Twenty O Nine - Cabin View

Looking out the window of the cabin of my dreams, leaving this sanctuary for another, taking a small household full of pets with kid in tow.... WOW... sounds like a big step.
The funny thing is, that it has all been basically done for me. All I had to do was hold the vision and "show up", which is precisely what I did. I go with the flow. God has it all under control and I don't. PERIOD. I make choices (and the older I get the more prayed out those choices are) and usually those choices are made for me, by God. God encourages the way.
Now, here I am in Manes, Missouri... The year is Twenty O Nine. I have gratefully manifested everything I have ever wanted and here I am, living my dream. I have my beautiful, creative, brightly Spirited kids, both growing into their each individual light. Jewlia, the strong Spirited Light of love, laughter & beauty. Max, the young warrior spirit, who is just beginning to learn who he is. I have the Dave, my Dave... My farmer's hackin', gravely voiced, noise makin, kind hearted, gentle man who adores me and cherishes my own crazy unique spirit that I can respect man. Together, we have a beautiful future full of adventures and love. It's like hanging out with your best friend every day kind of livin. Nurturing the food supply and being peace.
I have a wonderful family of it's own design, with parents, cousins, aunts, uncles, friends (a small word for so many different levels of meaning), "step" kids, adopted community kids, lonely old folk, dogs, cats, cows, chickens, turkeys and whatever else God brings our way.
I am surrounded by people who love me and care about my well being.
I release any vampires from my energy and I know that I am only surrounded by love & light.
So, together, Dave and I can save the world from humanity and make the world a better place one spirit at a time. That is our daily chore. This is our daily adventure.
Sure, sometimes it's overwhelming and I do handle things differently when I am not medicated. I get stressed out at all of the demands of "public service" Not so much the physical demands, but the emotional needs of a lot of people. Having enough energy to pass around. That is usually a dilemma for me. The one thing I am really good at is feeling. That is almost 100% of the time... Whether I am feeling emotional feelings or physical feelings, it's all about the same to me.
It's all energy moving. All I have to do is Pray, Show up and go with the flow. God directs me in the right direction always. For that I live in gratitude!
I am a testament that the Law of Attraction works! I know that in each of us is the God Power of creating our reality, simply by our belief.
I dreamed of the farm, the cabin, being Mom & My Dave. I held that vision and did what God directed me to do and here I am.... Living the dream - Thanks to the Universe that grants wishes and fully supports my light! I live in service and joy!
Now, home to the farm!

KNOW THAT GOD IS THE ENERGY THAT WE CALL LOVE!
Visualize it... 16 seconds... a world of peace, where every living being has the human right to be safe and then simply BE peace.