I thought I was safe from the maliciousness of people, simply because God always lights the way. God is GOOD. ALL the time. Any doubt of that is simply other peoples belief system messing with my bubble.
The question is how do I be a light in a place dimmed by ego and meanness? People judgment and gossip... I'm looking for God in everyone's eyes, but it is eluding me. It's not that God's not there... It's just that today, I don't see it. I am not sure what filters came off or went on, but my BA is aching, as well as my head and this physical body. Emotional stress plays havoc on my well being.
I know that I am here, as a spiritual being, to have this human experience. I know that I have agreed to this path long before my life on this planet began. I can not understand though, if I am being the light and following Gods path for me, then why am I subjected to stupid human petty drama. Do unto others... So, then if I am kind & compassionate & accepting of others, why is it not shown back to me? How can human beings be so cynical and cruel to one another and how am I, an enlightened being, supposed to behave around people that do not share my vibrational frequency? If I can't see my light how can I see anyone elses? If I forget my own strength and light, what if no one is here to remind me of it and I forget totally who I am?
I am not flesh & bone. I am a spiritual being trapped in a human body, surrounded by people who do not understand my language of non-violence and perhaps can not even see my light. They see me as a human and I am certainly not a human. Sure, I live in a human body and I have human behaviors and feelings, but I am sooooo much more than this crazy, overwhelmed, tragedy of a person.
Or am I?
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