The question today is all about what I am doing here.... Isn't it always?
Because I see myself as a meek, humble, spirited servant of love, I rarely look at the humanness in me. I try not to see it in anyone else either. I know that we are all here with a higher purpose and I am here to fufill whatever purpose God has for me here on this planet, in this life. This human life. What does it all mean from the BIG picture, Spiritual side AND what does it mean on the human side.
Humans... I prefer not to be around too many of them, especially at once. It totally sucks my energy and I am so vulnerable and hyper-sensitive to the energy and words. It is so much easier to hold consciousness when I have alone time with God. A time to connect with the ONE REAL TRUTH that I ABSOLUTELY BELIEVE IN WITH UNWAVERING FAITH.
The Divine power of Love.
I must learn to love the energy that I fear in the most Christlike manner. The objective is to understand what I fear, so that I know how to release it and overcome. That is the courageous thing to do. What is not love is fear and I believe that. We either manifest from our fears or we manifest from our love and it works simultaniusly. It has been said to "be careful what you wish for, as it might come true". That is so factual, however it could be "Be faithful what you wish for because it will come true."
Now that all of my dreams are coming true and I know that I am manifesting as fast as the speed of light, I know I must slow down the process a bit and enjoy what I have created.
It's time to get to work on the book and learn to plant the garden. It's time to learn farming and self sustainability. It's time to enjoy building a love and the life that I have spent my entire life dreaming of with the man that I have spent my life dreaming of. A simple life full of sunshine and color, animals, peaceful harmony, balance, passion, quiet, resourcefulness, sanctuary.
It is an interesting experience, as an only child, learning to be around siblings and family a lot.
It truely makes me appreciate my own, personal space. My bubble....
I truely love the farm and am starting to believe that I will spend the rest of my life here with Dave and the Wadey Bunch, being Lyn. Everyone knows I'm crazy and they are all cool with it.
I feel safe here. I know that my Dave cares for me, cherishes me and keeps us safe. He will let no harm come to any of us. He is my Pa Ingalls only better... He is My Dave. My only Dave. All others were simply imposters. I know that I have been vulnerable and I know that every step I have taken in my life, looking and searching for my "real life", have led me stright here to Manes with My Dave and Our Life. Right here to the cozy warmth of our Love room. Right here in the arms of the strongest, most gentle man I have ever known who I love with a richness I have never felt before. A bond of trust that I know that I can believe in, simply because it's God.
Back to the purpose... Now that I'm here, with the man that I love, time to get into the groove of the book AND manage the cafe' AND get the Farmers Market up & going AND learn gardening AND BREATHE... Now that I'm here, I kind of want to catch my breath. Learn to feel safe and at home. Learn how to be aorund family members when I have become so reclusive. There is sooo much more to do... I'll just keep doing what I do best. I'll show up and I'll hold consciousness of the beautiful life that I know we are creating, Dave, my family and me.
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