My Full Time Job

I am in fact my own full time job. Once again, I have decided that medication to treat the symptoms of my "Rapid cycling Bi-Polar" diagnosis, is really more trouble than it's worth. So, when I saw my doctors stand in doctor, early Dec., I told her that I wasn't taking my meds anymore. She gave me a perscription for Lemictal & told me it's available to me if I want it.
Well, I don't. Not right now.
I live in my feelings ALL THE TIME. I'm not sure why that is, but it is how I am.
My BA hurts today, for no particular reason... This is not a "normal" human feeling... This, I have learned, is something odd about me.
My naval chakra is off kilter. I want to be happy & joyful about Christmas. I want to be my free spirited, loving self. I want to see the yellow & purple signs.
I am bouncing from naval chakra and third-eye chakra. Yellow & Indigo. I am trying to balance my yellow & Indigo. To some that might make sense. To others, I must just be crazy. All I know is that, right now, I am trying to figure out my space in the world.
Waking up at the farm, seeing the stars & hearing the roosters crow, wrapped up in Davids love, creating the peace farm that I have always dreamed of with the true man of my dreams, is the most wonderful thing I have experienced (besides being a Mom). I know beyond the shadow of a doubt that there is a God and It loves me. I know that the Universe fully supports my every dream and that all I have to do is ask God what to do next & I will be directed.
All I have to do is simply supply myself as a vessel and God does the rest.
There is still this energy of "feelings" though that keep me occupied and processing those feelings until I understand them or can move through them. Some feelings are not even mine. I am so sensitive to other energy that it takes me some time every day to decipher my feelings from others.
I know exercises that I can do to release other peoples energy and I try to make myself do them. However, it doesn't always work so easy.
So, I allow myself to feel other peoples energy so that I can process it, learn from it and then release it. The issue I am having with this is all of the energy it takes to be in other peoples bubbles.
I feel safe and free in the arms of my angel. Other than that, I am vulnerable to whomever/whatever I come into contact with.
Well, that's the ramblings of a crazy woman for today...
More later. Much Love and Sunshine through this season of joy! LOL