Where I belong...

I woke up hearing the wind and the roosters, blankets kicked all over & feeling my usual
morning restlessness. I got up & went outside. There I sat, on a wood log, for awhile, looking at the darkness of the morning and listening to the beagles playing in the field.
Thinking. Knowing. This beautiful farm is where I will spend the rest of this human experience. That's a long time for my restless spirit to comprehend.
I am almost 42. That means, if my prediction of 84 is correct, then I am actually at mid-life.
I have about 42 more years to live this life & fulfill my destiny.
I look back on these past 42 years & it seems like a long time. I have lived a lot in
those years! Now, it's time for me to take all of my experiences from the past and release them, knowing with complete confidence that, moving forward, I have the power of God and my own Creative process to do my work and finally live my dream.
I have dreamed of the farm. Even spent years searching for it.
All along it was here, in Manes, with the undisputed love of my life.
So, now that God has brought me here, what next??
I am going to learn all that I can about farming and self-sufficiency.
I remember my Grandma Sylvia in the big garden, when I was a girl, but I was
too young & wrapped up in my own life to really learn what I had the opportunity to learn.
Growing food. Preserving food. Cooking food. LOL
Now, I begin again. God has given me a chance to come home and start over, so that I might learn things that I need to know. God has brought me to My Dave and together we are a
a pair. We love God. We love nature. We love being outside. We love taking care of people.
So, how to do this while making enough money to sustain us in societies rules?
The Book. Church ladies has sat for almost a year. I have researched & taken notes this year, but I have not typed out one single sentence in the book. The time will come when I will begin writing again and I will be so ready for it.
The main thing for me is to be sure the kids are safe & loved and I am stable in my crazy head. Stable... hhhhmmmm... I don't know if I have ever really felt that.
I feel secure & safe here, but stable will take some time. The longest roommate I have had is Jewlia and we have moved a lot. She & I have moved 6 times in her 18 years. Always searching for something... Now, the search is over & I am learning stability here in Manes.
I look around this big old farmhouse and think to myself what 42 years here will be like.
What will I be like here? As long as I have my Dave beside me, life will be good here.
I believe that we will work hard and do whatever we must do to take care of the people we love and the community. I know that we will answer Gods callings and do what we must do to serve. That is our truth. We are both servants for Love and compassion. Davis supports and
lives as peace. My Dave IS a Peaceful Warrior. A true Man. An honest man. A brave man and a compassionate man. David smiles and laughs a lot. He is as real as they come and he's been here, waiting for me.
I know that our paths have been hard and lonely at times seperately. I also know that our love is the most powerful force in the Universe and that there is nothing that we can not accomplish and overcome together, right here, on the farm, in Manes.
I have finally found my place in the world, where I belong, with my new extended family, my loving partner and my wonderful kids! Now that I am home, it's time to wait for God's next
assignment and while I am waiting, I am learning and growing into the next season of my life.
I am going into the Autumn years. My hair is showing a few greys and my wrinkles are appearing. My body is no longer young and has many miles on it. I am middle aged and home with the love of my life. What a damn good place to be!

VISUALIZE WORLD PEACE.
LOVE!!!!